Tuesday, October 8, 2013


I have been in a funk before, but I promise you I have not known THIS level of apathy towards work since ever.  I have been completely overworked for too long and now I'm just over - over it, over it, over it.

It's just never ending and I'm losing it.  It's like I'm 19 hours into an 88 day flight.

I can't get to the boss because he went on a business trip to Mexico and is now vacationing there with his wife, because sure why not ... and the meeting we were to have as a group to discuss workload?  We're too busy to have that meeting and he postponed it a month.



Meanwhile - there's a litany of other things going on in my life besides work (I know - crazy) and managing it all emotionally just getting to me.  I'm privy to information about my brother (because he told me) that my parents don't know and friends of mine are telling me that my parents deserve to know, but I promised not to tell and although I know they should know - who the fuck am I?

So, there's that.  And then there's this whole new schedule with the kids that's fucking up a routine that's been working for 5 years.

I have had this goal of investing in property and can't seem to get past the threshold of any real progress because always something else comes up.  So, like do I really not want it? or am I just too busy to handle it?  Or ... fuck it.

Just fuck it.

I haven't even begun to discuss the fuckery I deal with at work from people who are all in the same boat as me ...

And do NOT get me started on ...

You know what - I'm burned out.  that's all.  I called off on Friday for feeling too ethnic to go into work (a brain-fuck in that I had to not go to work in order to keep my job) and all this week I just sleep to whenever the fuck I please and stroll in at noon or later when I start at 9:30 and really - who the fuck is gonna care?  The boss is on vacation in Mexico while I sit here not giving a flying fuck about doing a goddam thing.


  1. This post was sponsored by almost the exact same shit I'm living through and doing, except my boss sits 15ft away. WHOOPS! I wish we could have a movie + fattening food night to just be slothy and veg out and talk shit about people and not give a fuck, together. What kind of ice cream do you like? Haagen Dazs is at 2 for $5 at Foodtown this week...

  2. Anybody's vanilla is fine - cuz I add sprinkled and syrup and peanut butter and granola and honey and chocolate shavings and caramel and .... And who wants all that on BUTTER PECAN?? Ick ....